The days of 2010 are drawing to a close. The insanely long nights are here, the snow is melting and dripping from the porch overhanging the window of our basement apartment, and I am considering my blog. 2011 beckons and a new chapter of writing is about to unfold.
And the more I read about blogging, the stronger the emphasis seems to be on creating useful information for people out there. A successful blog, apparently, tells people how to do stuff, and cheerleads them on in their life. So they keep coming back for more. Fair enough, I read a few writing blogs which are filled with the stuff, and frankly, they do help me out from time-to-time.
But do I really want to blog about such matters?
If I'm honest, the last thing I want to do right now is construct a persona online (which may sound ironic, considering the immensely self-publicizing nature of my website). But seriously, reaching my arms around the vast ether and pumping up a readership based on regurgitated information does not appeal to me.
I just want to find my truth as I type. I don't want to project or invent or entertain. I want to strip everything down. I want to write from the wordless depths of my gut, to give shape to the emotions that swirl about me. That's usually why I pick up a notebook. It's probably terribly self-indulgent, but it feels right. Maybe it's also because I have worked as a journalist for a decade, and so I know what professional writing is about - it's polished and factual and full of flavor. But it's also about giving shape and form to the external world.
And my blogging, like my own personal writing, tends to give shape to the interior.
It's a move within. And I'm hoping that by writing about my inner changes, my emotions and blockages and realizations and discoveries, that this will be useful to the world. Instead of just churning out another blog about how to get more readers, or how to use social media to enhance your profile, I want to keep things real.
Is this entirely delusional of me?
Perhaps it's the punk approach to blogging.
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